How the f in the world does one move on from being in love with their best friend for years? How does one deal with the pain of loving someone for years, thinking you would have a chance with him, but only to get his orientation thrown at your face. "I'm not exactly interested in girls." And you try your hardest to put on your happy face, to try and be happy for him for coming out to you, but, honestly, inside you're just being broken repeatedly again and again. Overtime, the pain fades a little. But then, you meet up more because he trusts you more. But that just makes you fall in love with him all over again. And fuck, it fucking hurts to see him smile so brightly and laugh, when the reason is not you.